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Am I A Fake?

May 6, 2015 2:55 pm

Am I a Fake?
A poem by:

Kristina Carrillo-Bucaram aka FullyRaw Kristina

Hey you guys, Kristina here. There has been a lot going on in my life recently, and it has really caused me to grow as a person. Death, loss, tragedy, pain, heartache…all of these experiences in life that cause us to become STRONGER PEOPLE. I feel it?s a part of who I am to always express myself and share. It?s what we are all here to do. Health is more than just about the food and your physical well-being, but it?s also about your spiritual, emotional, and mental self-love as well. Being creative and writing helps me process pain and grief so I wrote a poem. Many of you may not know that I grew up as an artist. I am a writer, a potter, a photographer, and a musician. While I love making recipes and sharing with you my food art, what I am about to share with you is also an important part of healthy expression. IT?S FULLY REAL. It?s about self-love and staying true to yourself…no matter what. I?m hoping that this poem will help you learn more about me and if any of you are going through a difficult time it can help you find strength and persevere as well.

Do I have your attention?
I?m human. I?m real.
I too have pent up tension.
I have thoughts, feelings, and passions to reveal.
Because as much as I wish, I am not made of steel.

Everyone experiences real situations
but those who choose to address their fears are the brave ones.
The courageous smile in the end.
I am working on myself and my inner communication.

I want to share with you what I have learned
What has changed my life,
caused my heart to churn.
How I?ve dealt with negative situations and STRIFE

Bad energy, mean people, sickness, deaths, uncontrollable heartbreaks?
None were a mistake…but thrown my way.
They were brought to my path as growth opportunities
So that I could learn to overcome PAIN.

Just because I am happy doesn?t mean I don?t experience dark moments
That I haven?t been hurt, or shamed, or, broken.
Being happy doesn?t mean that I?m fake or plastic.
or that I?m inexperienced or dumb or that I?m any less fantastic

Even when things get rough,
I?ve chosen to still believe.
I feed my body with foods that keep me clean
Because it?s better to feel than to NUMB myself in misery
I give my body life
eating fruits and vegetables
and it goes beyond the exterior…it becomes ethical.

I feed my mind with positive affirmations
and I?ve taught myself to become my own best friend
Because angels can become demons
and trusting is no longer sacred.

Learn to love your haters
and love your lovers.
Because they allow you to grow.
God will never give you
What you choose not to know.

If you don?t open your eyes,
then you will fail to see
This life doesn?t have to be about misery
It?s whatever you create it to be.

Whether you?re dealing with rejection, hopelessness, worthlessness, death, or fear
You?re never alone…you have to feel that security in HERE (point to heart)

You MUST BE YOU
Under all circumstances
And if you don?t know who that is?
THANK GOD we are given second chances?.

To discover who we want to be
And we are forever changing
Make the choice to be greater today
than you were yesterday
And with each step towards GREATNESS you take
The pain inside lessens and goes away.

It?s a blasphemy to disrespect yourself in such a way
such self-hate
can only be destroyed with ?self-appreciate?
Say it over and over and over again
?I AM WORTHY
I AM WORTHY
I AM WORTHY?
I AM MY FRIEND.

I rise above every obstacle here
I choose to stand back up
I choose to FEEL
Because being vulnerable is BRAVE
and forgiveness takes COURAGE
weed out your garden
and learn to love again
so that you can FLOURISH

Allow yourself to be TRULY SEEN
Stripped FREE
JUST ME
Who you are meant to be

If you?re vegan then SHOW COMPASSION
don?t be a jerk
that message only clashes
and creates CONFUSION
to those who want to see and who can make a difference
because if everyone ate just one FULLYRAW meal a day that would create BRILLIANCE

I can only be me,
and you can only be you
and that is ALWAYS good enough
to get THIS message through

Just because I am happy doesn?t mean I don?t experience dark moments
That I haven?t been hurt, or shamed, or, broken.
Being happy doesn?t mean that I?m fake or plastic
or that I?m inexperienced or dumb or that I?m any less fantastic

Being happy means I?ve chosen to live IN THIS MOMENT
That I?m experiencing the PRESENT
No matter how scary that may be
I?m going to make the BEST OF IT.

Because it?s better to LIVE and FEEL
To laugh, to cry, to scream, to BE REAL
Than to completely shut DOWN
OR COMPLETELY CONCEAL

You?re heart is trying to TALK TO YOU
So why don?t you listen?
Ignoring the voice of truth in your heart
Only causes you to stiffen
and over time you lose your vision and the hope to glisten
The pain inside makes you feel imprisoned

So cry that pain out
Taste your salty tears
SAY OUT LOUD WHAT YOU WANT
And make friends with your fears

Life isn?t about putting on a show
but sharing what you know
because it?s those who choose to open up
who will find beauty in the ebb and flow

I?m here to live as an inspiration
To tell you that everything you want is already in rotation
So wake yourself UP and raise your VIBRATION
The laws of attraction give the gift of FORMATION
God is with you to bring you SALVATION

I?m here to show you that happiness is possible
That health is achievable
That goodness is receivable
Everything you want is DREAMABLE

MIND AND
BODY AND
SPIRIT?
ALL ARE ONE
THE GOAL is to be WHOLE
If you choose this journey?
Make it fun
Remember: WE ARE ALL ONE.

I?ll just go ahead and say it:
I?m a FRIGGIN RESURGENT UNICORN
I?ve seen it ALL
I?ve been dragged through the mud
I came out alive?
AND I still fall
Because I am NOT perfect
and I live on this place called earth
but I wake up every morning
and I CHOOSE TO REMEMBER MY WORTH

I remember my joy
I remember my peace
I remember the love that lives inside of me

So this is how I decide to deal with REAL LIFE.
I write poems to share.
I eat FullyRaw.
I WORK ON BEING THE BEST VERSION OF ME.
I run in fields of bluebonnets and wildflowers.
And I fall in love with with ME all over again.
I give hugs and bring color into my life.
I spend time with my family,
I create pottery.
I sing and make music.
I bust out in random tandom dance.
and I do things that bring me joy.
Inspiring you brings me joy.

Just because I am happy doesn?t mean I don?t experience dark moments
Just because I am happy doesn?t mean I don?t experience dark moments
That I haven?t been hurt, or shamed, or, broken.
Being happy doesn?t mean that I?m fake or plastic
or that I?m inexperienced or dumb or that I?m any less FANTASTIC.
It just means I?ve chosen to SHINE MY LIGHT THROUGH THE DARKNESS.
I?ve chosen to shine brighter than any obstacle placed before me.
Because I KNOW that I am incredible human being.
My heart has LIGHT, and I will follow it home.
Because home is in THIS BODY, and THIS HOME IS LOVE.

I AM LOVE.
I AM HEALTH.
I AM HAPPY.
I AM ME.

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